Hey! And welcome to the wonderful, whimsical place that is my deviantART page
To begin with, I am a goth. No, that doesn’t mean I worship Satan or that I want to murder you or that I do a lot of drugs. I just like all things spooky and creepy, tacky Halloween decorations, old underground bands, corny horror movies, the Victorian era, and haunting, well written literature. I will admit, however, that I DO have picnics and read books in graveyards like a stereotypical goth girl. Go ahead and judge me.
Next, yes, that is how my name is spelled, and it is pronounced pretty much the way it is spelt. (If you are French you probably already know that
) You have no idea how many substitute teachers have messed up my name.
My childhood, though not exactly rosy, had some highlights. The Tintin comics, the Lord of the Rings, and Alice in Wonderland, which were my favorite books growing up (or in Tintin’s case, comics) all had a significant influence on my growth. I began reading at a young age, and I’ve always got a book in the process of being read my favorite genres of writing are horror and thriller, historical fiction, fantasy, and, of course, classic gothic literature.
As a child, I enjoyed drawing a lot. I liked painting too but I didn’t always have paints or brushes that I could get my hands on, so, I mostly drew. I felt so good when I could draw something just right.
I had a few friends as a kid, but the problem was that we were never close. We’d hang out for a few months and then things would just kinda fall apart. I finally have a few friends though mow that I am actually close to and who I love very much.
I have two little brothers, one (Alun) whom I get along with famously, and another (Tommy) whom I’m trying to be a better sister to. We used to live in Australia, but we moved to the US last year. Let me tell you though, as soon as I get out of school I’m high tailing it out of here. To be honest this country is kinda fucked up.
I take art classes, and experiment in a lot of different mediums. I do some photography (often nature photography), I paint sometimes, some cosmetic art, and some crafts. My favorite art mediums, however, are drawing (usually with graphite pencil but sometimes with other things), writing (short stories, longer stories, free verse poetry, songwriting) and music (composing for guitar, violin, vocals etc.).
I enjoy collecting and preserving bones.
I am a PAGAN (my beliefs are mostly within the spectrum of Wicca and Celtic practices), and I am still exploring my spirituality. As for everyone else’s religions, I don’t really care what you’re into as long as you don’t force bullshit down my throat. I don’t appreciate belittlement or badgering.
I am pansexual. And in case some people are curious, no, that doesn’t mean I’m attracted to everyone…that would be exhausting. I mean think about it: straight guys, are you attracted to every woman you see? Straight women, do you have no standard for who deserves your affection? Well, it’s the same for us pansexuals. It just means we are not limited to the attraction of a specific gender, and can have sexual or romantic feelings for men, women, and anyone in between. Pan Pride!!
My heart's true passion is music. I research music and movements and bands a lot, I write music and play music and listen to music. My heart beats for it. If we like the same bands, we will probably get along well, haha.
I have a few mental illnesses which complicate life a lot. The ones that cause the biggest impact on my life are depression, severe anxiety, and varying levels of schizophrenia. Despite these, and despite having struggled with self-injury, eating disorder and 3 past suicide attempts, I am healing and growing and learning to love life, and I am so much stronger than I was. And you know what? I’m learning to love myself too, which is something I’ve never had before. I am broken, but I am beautiful.
There are so many places I’ve been, so many things I’ve seen, but despite this being more than many other people my age have experienced, instead of sating my lust for life it has only sparked an even deeper, more ravenous hunger for the world. I don’t want to simply EXIST, I want to Live. I aspire to be a journalist in the future for at least the first part of my working career, like my hero Tintin, and see some of the world and have my own adventure.
Anyways, enough of that. I hope you enjoy my art, and I hope we can watch each other and maybe be friends.
And hey by the way, my favorite music and books wouldn't all fit into the box below, so...
Siouxsie and the Banshees
The Velvet Underground
The Butcher Babies
Lamb of God
The Vampire Chronicles, anything Poe or Lovecraft, Wuthering Heights, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Dracula, Dracula: The Undead, Lord of the Rings, EVERY SINGLE TINTIN COMIC, Alice in Wonderland, Alice Through the Looking Glass, Something Wicked This Way Comes, Fahrenheit 451,The Inheritance Cycle, Year Of Wonders, Inkheart trilogy, White Rabbit Chronicles, The Green Mile, The Shining, Silver Bullet, 'Salem's Lot ( and basically every other Stephen King book I've read)